Anastasia Curtis Writes

Dark spaces and Autistic Meltdowns

When meltdowns happen for me the best thing for me is a dark space with no lights and lots of blankets.

Meltdowns happen because an autistic person has too much sensory input coming at them, or when a situation is too much for them to handle. And every autistic person has their own needs from the people around them when in the midst of a meltdown.

The best thing for me to do when I am in the throes of a meltdown, or even in the after effects of one is a nice safe dark space.

Any other Time in my life I hate the dark. I have too much anxiety to appreciate it in any form. The dark had too much implication in the form of worries and monsters and people who could do me harm.

But during or after a meltdown I need the  dark to block out everything around me. I need to not have any form of sensory input other than the blanket over me and music if I need it.

The dark blocks out everything that I would have to process, from the lights, to the noise of the word.

And what I need out of the people around is to leave me alone during a meltdown. I need the dark, I need the silence. I need the heavy blanket wrapped around and over me.

The dark is comforting to me in those times. It isn’t oppressing, or scary. It is nothing in those times.

It gives me nothing, and more importantly it gives my senses nothing. And one of the best things is that it will never change. The dark will give me nothing unexpected, and that is one of the most important things that I need in those times.

The dark is quiet and it is still. It gives me the time and space to calm down and be okay. And it will be their as long as I need it to be.

So even though I don’t like the dark in any other times, I will take it as needed during those times.

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